1. natural ability to do something well


intransitive verb
1. to continue to be alive
→ Probably nobody will read this but it's a pretty interesting article I looked up about languages in relation to thought

Did you know some languages don’t use egocentric directions, only geographic? 


Before you go to sleep you should say to yourself, aloud, “I could die tomorrow.”

It has a strange effect, saying it aloud. Makes this possibility seem more real, as real as it actually is. 

Then say to yourself, “I could die in 5 minutes.” 

Imagine you will in fact die in 5 minutes. What do you do? I mean really imagine, expect that, you will no longer be alive, you will be dead, in 5 minutes. Because this is the reality of it, your life doesn’t exist in 5 minutes, it only exists now. 


I get sad when I think about how many other times I will be sad in the future.

my new thang

recently (like starting saturday) ive been trying to do this thing where instead of immediately being mopey and angry and depressed when things don’t seem to turn out how i want them

i remain calm and as happy as i can be.

it’s difficult lemme tell you, to not just instinctively give in to my initial feelings and let them grow

but i think it’s ultimately made me a bit happier, more positive, and more hopeful

is it sad that i sort of got this from a tea bag tag quote?

"bliss is a constant state of mind, unaffected by gain or loss"

i figure, if i want to be blissful, i cannot allow my gut reactions to run my mind

i must think positively, not worry so much, and most importantly, be joyful for those around me

lol me bein all existential n shyt

"Bliss is a constant state of mind, undisturbed by gain or loss."
— Yogi tea bag

People aren’t born evil. People are born weak; weak in the face of the world’s woes and their impact on the soul. Evil is created, not inherent.

unconditional love

um so im pretty sure some kid tried to trip me on my way back to math class from the bathroom today, basically every person ever was sitting in the hallway with their legs straight out while i was like how the fuck do i get through

at first when i realized this i was like:

  • have fun going nowhere in life you asshole
  • i wish i had actually tripped and then gotten severely injured you asshole
  • fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou you asshole
  • i should turn around and kick you in the fucking crotch you asshole
  • and so on

and then for some reason during chorus i was like:

  • the point is to forgive and show love to even those you hate
  • i want to be a happier, nicer person, and free myself from that type of anger
  • if you can realize this and stop with these awful thoughts you will ultimately feel better 

idk what it was but that sudden change in thinking made me realize how happy i am to have a conscience 

i forgive you kid, and i hope that you will only learn what you did was wrong and affected me greatly, and that you will not do this to anyone in the future. in fact, i actually wish the best for you.

that’s the other point: you seriously DO NOT KNOW what other people are thinking/going through. you cannot know. you cannot read minds. you must strive, no matter how hard it is (as i realized today) to respect people and make them feel loved. it is not easy, it is in fact one of the hardest things to do (especially when you’re ready to punch someone in the face)

"They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
Edgar Allan Poe
"External circumstances are not what draw us into suffering. Suffering is caused and permitted by an untamed mind. The appearance of self-defeating emotions in our minds leads us to faulty actions. The naturally pure mind is covered over by these emotions and troubling conceptions. The force of their deceit pushes us into faulty actions, which leads inevitably to suffering. We need, with great awareness and care, to extinguish these problematic attitudes, the way gathering clouds dissolve back into the sphere of the sky. When our self-defeating attitudes, emotions, and conceptions cease, so will the harmful actions arising from them. As the great Tibetan yogi Milarepa says, “When arising, arising within space itself; when dissolving, dissolving back into space.” We need to become familiar with the state of our own minds to understand how to dissolve ill-founded ideas and impulses back into the deeper sphere of reality. The sky was there before the clouds gathered, and it will be after they have gone. It is also present when the clouds seem to cover every inch of the sky we can see."
—from How to Expand Love: Widening the Circle of Loving Relationships by H.H. the Dalai Lama, translated and edited by Jeffrey Hopkins

sometimes i feel like the list of things that makes me sad is longer than that which makes me happy


do you ever think about how good a movie your life would be?