squareular said: IT IS FOR ME
recently (like starting saturday) ive been trying to do this thing where instead of immediately being mopey and angry and depressed when things don’t seem to turn out how i want them
i remain calm and as happy as i can be.
it’s difficult lemme tell you, to not just instinctively give in to my initial feelings and let them grow
but i think it’s ultimately made me a bit happier, more positive, and more hopeful
is it sad that i sort of got this from a tea bag tag quote?
"bliss is a constant state of mind, unaffected by gain or loss"
i figure, if i want to be blissful, i cannot allow my gut reactions to run my mind
i must think positively, not worry so much, and most importantly, be joyful for those around me
lol me bein all existential n shyt
tomorrow everyone’s gonna be like OMG FUCKYEAH SUPERBOWL FOOTBALL WOO MANLY SPORTS TESTOSTERONE BUFFALO WINGS BEER CHEERLEADERSSSSSS
and ill be like ah time to brew a pot of hot tea and finish some school work oh look my cat has come to sit on my lap perfect i will read my book now and eat some jasmine rice with fresh vegetables and then draw a picture and interpret these song lyrics
just went to sip my tea and hit my teeth on the ceramic mug
made a nice “clink” though
LOL my dad just entered my room again, slowly, and in a high-pitched british accent said “Tea father?” imitating this house keeper from an old bbc series my family is obsessed with, and then handed me a mug of hot tea
wat is this night? lol laughter IS a good form of medicine
off to the tea co
to enjoy some hot beverages and probly bitch about college with friends!
i lit a blood orange candle
turned off all the lights in my room
curled up in my papasan chair with my cat,
a mug of hot sleepytime tea,
3 rosemary shortbread cookies,
and started watching masterpiece theatre’s Downtown Abbey via netflix on my laptop (i love my masterpiece theatre)
although it was interesting i started falling asleep
so i switched to Like Water for Chocolate
spanish with subtitles (i’m a big foreign film person)
and young marco leonardi…
overall i feel extremely satisfied, cozy, and at peace,
also slightly old
but mostly content