Talent for Living



Talent
noun
1. natural ability to do something well

-for-

Living
intransitive verb
1. to continue to be alive

i wanna lose weight and tbh i kinda hate how, well ok there’s like the whole idea of totally accepting yourself as you are and beyond that actually loving yourself and simply seeing everyone despite size and whatnot as beautiful and yES THATS GREAT IT RLY IS AND SHOULD BE ALWAYS

HOWEVER

i then literally feel insecure when i want to just lose weight because its like this

"man i gotta lose weight/get in shape!"

"OMG Shut up you are not fat you look great! stop it"

AND ITS LIKE COOL NOW I FEEL SHALLOW OR WRONG FOR WANTING TO GET MY BODY TO THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE

idk its a weird conflicting thing! like one should never feel ashamed of wanting to lose weight! but i usually do because its not like I’m really heavy or completely out of shape so for someone my size, someone who is not necessarily super slender OR quite heavy, theres this strange complex of feeling like you will get pegged as superficial or having an ED or something simply because you desire to change your body!

i never say really that “i want to lose weight” out loud for this reason, instead I’ve always said something like “i need to get into shape!” or “id like to be healthier!” but really goddammit i just want to lose some weight, be able to fit into some smaller sizes, and just feel better about myself in general! AND IM SICK OF FEELING GUILTY ABOUT THOSE DESIRES 

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apathy is a good defense mechanism 

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Do u ever just _| ̄|O

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HOW

DO

PEOPLE

JUST

HAVE

SEX

AND

ACT

INTIMATELY

HOW

ARE

PEOPLE

JUST

THAT

COMFORTABLE

WITH

THEIR

BODY

HOW

HOW

HOW

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why does the hottest guy in existence have to sit across from me rn 

And then Lili ends up at an African drumming/dancing event

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does anyone else ever feel a sense of being trapped

trapped by life

u dont want to die but you dont get what youre doing or why

does anyone else ever get fucking terrified everyday in strong waves by their own thoughts and then break down and have a panic attack and then get depressed and then have semi-suicidalish thoughts

does anyone else feel crippled by their own thoughts and mind

does anyone else ever feel that what they are thinking is the truth and that its just something you will have to accept that the truth is sad and you will have to deal with it so you get depressed because you feel that there is no point

does ANYONE ELSE RELATE

DOES ANYONE ELSE WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM 

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I think I literally just watched some guy smoke crack from the window of the train at the station lol

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Tell me a story about yourself about your life about something you think is worth telling a story about!

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why does it feel that sadness and time are mutually inclusive 

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French professional handball player

Late night

Drinks

It happened

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ALSO BC LIKE IDK ABOUT ANYbody else but for me i find so much beauty in the way of people

like does that make sense?

like do you ever just sort of observe a person? and in your observation, find this strange indescribable beauty and grace about them? ugh this is so hard to explain im just hoping you all understand anyway

like when i see a girl playing with her hair for her own sake, or when i see a guy stick his hands in his pant pockets and rock on his feet, or when i hear someone’s voice while they are talking on the phone and not paying attention to the ppl around them, idk just shit like that that really, to ME, makes people beautiful and attractive

i really can’t explain myself

basically i find beauty in marvel in the essence of people, not just their appearance.

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